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February 2008 |
Saturday, May 23, 2009, 20:15
Crap
friends were complainingfriends is writing i am me i am an locked black box i don't choose to be this but i'm not saying i don't want to be one it is a secret some people know and they don't really care do i care? it's not about friendship neither about relationship it's just a truth of a real person i maybe not be dangerous but i will because i was and i can't predict it i am not talking a bout a game nor a lie a truth i have been keeping i have not resolved i don't say i enjoy it but i must i breathe, eat, sleep i live with it you may thing i am a joke just a drama queen my life yes is a drama and i am the main actress i am not getting paid i get no advantage but i'm not saying that i am the victim and i am not the controller this is a roller coaster but you will not puke dizzy will not come to you it does not even amazed you this is not an entertainment never a story maybe a history but sure it is a life been fighting so i don't have to take medicine so the world don't have to find out that i am an ill i need to be alienated maybe i don't want to but i have made some victims eight are down how many more? one is dying trying so hard to stay i am not pushing away and i don't want to but somehow i am sure i will hurt more i don't want to continue do i need to self-destruct (again)? will people mourn then? will they be lost? will someone cry? i will not bet will there be an ending of this writing? i am not sure i can write more and more without thinking completely the same with my life i can't find an ending maybe i am not searching because there's no point in it Labels: Life |