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Rianti Dwiastuti.
16 years old.
Taken and in love.

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Monday, June 29, 2009, 17:16
Love Song.

Balonku ada lima
Rupa-rupa warnanya
Hijau, kuning, kelabu,
Merah mudah, dan biru

Meletus balon hijau
"DOR!"
Hatiku sangat kacau
Balonku tinggal empat
Kupegang erat-erat


He cannot sing
But he sang for me
Admit it, badly

Hey, I love it!




Monday, June 8, 2009, 22:46
Now

i have nothing
in my mind

i don't care
about the school
any
more

euro trip is coming
and i have no
willing to
pack

i have this wild
personality
that i don't
want to care


only for now




Thursday, June 4, 2009, 13:51
Enough

have you ever
felt so
disappointed?


having something
below your
expectation?









i have.





Now.









i need
nobody to
tell me
it is enough,
that i am
smart enough
please,
enough!




Thursday, May 28, 2009, 20:38
When Enough Is Now

i left
when the
phone
rings


i know
it
is you


call
me a
coward


but i
am
running away


i can
not be in
a fight


before i
have a
rest


we must
break this
routine


or i break
us




Wednesday, May 27, 2009, 19:31
Balance

i have told you, right?
or i haven't?




i need
balance


i do
not expect
peace


i need to
keep everything
real











i beg



please stop!




18:28
A Dream

i have
nothing to
write


not
glad
nor
sad


i just
tired
i need
a time
to hibernate

or
maybe a
getaway

private island

with white
sand beach

umbrella drink

while sitting by
the beach







i have a dream
which always be





a dream




Tuesday, May 26, 2009, 20:29
shut up!

i don't wish for a pressure
nor a push



i
do
not
want


your


words




Monday, May 25, 2009, 19:05
May I Ask A Time of Yours?

people!
attention!
please listen to me!
stop ask!


it is not
that i don't want
to be
heard



but i just
don't want
a scene


i
am
not
right




that is why
i choose
to
left


i may have
a
future


and in second
i can
lose it


i am not
holding tight
to anything
anyone



i try
to be
independent


i want a
help



but now
is the
most wrong
time


i have this
puzzle that
i can
not resolve



it is not that
i am
stupid


somehow i choose
to let it
be


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Sunday, May 24, 2009, 12:59
do you care?

breathing is a gift from God.
happiness is a gift we choose.
trouble is a gift we can not resist.
death is a gift we can not predict.





now i want to try :





refuse the gift from God.
choose no gift.
resist an event.
predict the end.







i am powerless




Saturday, May 23, 2009, 20:15
Crap

friends were complaining
friends is writing
i am me
i am an locked black box




i don't choose to be this
but i'm not saying i don't want to be one
it is a secret
some people know
and they don't really care







do i care?









it's not about friendship
neither about relationship
it's just a truth
of a real person






i maybe not be dangerous
but i will
because i was
and i can't predict it












i am not talking a bout a game
nor a lie
a truth i have been keeping
i have not resolved




i don't say i enjoy it
but i must
i breathe, eat, sleep
i live with it











you may thing i am a joke
just a drama queen
my life yes is a drama
and i am the main actress









i am not getting paid
i get no advantage
but i'm not saying that i am the victim
and i am not the controller






this is a roller coaster
but you will not puke
dizzy will not come to you
it does not even amazed you











this is not an entertainment
never a story
maybe a history
but sure it is a life









been fighting so i don't have to take medicine
so the world don't have to find out
that i am an ill
i need to be alienated











maybe i don't want to
but i have made some victims
eight are down
how many more?











one is dying
trying so hard to stay
i am not pushing away
and i don't want to











but somehow i am sure
i will hurt more
i don't want to continue
do i need to self-destruct (again)?











will people mourn then?
will they be lost?
will someone cry?
i will not bet














will there be an ending of this writing?
i am not sure
i can write more and more
without thinking












completely the same with my life
i can't find an ending
maybe i am not searching
because there's no point in it

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