balonpecah whispers

Love Song.

2009-06-29T17:16:00.004+07:00

Balonku ada lima
Rupa-rupa warnanya
Hijau, kuning, kelabu,
Merah mudah, dan biru

Meletus balon hijau
"DOR!"
Hatiku sangat kacau
Balonku tinggal empat
Kupegang erat-erat

He cannot sing
But he sang for me
Admit it, badly

Hey, I love it!

Now

2009-06-08T22:46:00.003+07:00

i have nothing
in my mind

i don't care
about the school
any
more

euro trip is coming
and i have no
willing to
pack

i have this wild
personality
that i don't
want to care

only for now

Enough

2009-06-04T13:51:00.006+07:00

have you ever
felt so
disappointed?

having something
below your
expectation?

i have.

Now.

i need
nobody to
tell me
it is enough,
that i am
smart enough
please,

enough!

When Enough Is Now

2009-05-28T20:38:00.002+07:00

i left
when the
phone
rings

i know
it
is you

call
me a
coward

but i
am
running away

i can
not be in
a fight

before i
have a
rest

we must
break this
routine

or i break
us

Balance

2009-05-27T19:31:00.004+07:00

i have told you, right?
or i haven't?

i need
balance

i do
not expect
peace

i need to
keep everything
real

i beg

please stop!

A Dream

2009-05-27T18:28:00.003+07:00

i have
nothing to
write

not
glad
nor
sad

i just
tired

i need
a time
to hibernate

or

maybe a
getaway

private island

with white
sand beach

umbrella drink

while sitting by
the beach

i have a dream
which always be

a dream

shut up!

2009-05-26T20:29:00.003+07:00

i don't wish for a pressure
nor a push

i
do
not
want

your

words

May I Ask A Time of Yours?

2009-05-25T19:05:00.002+07:00

people!
attention!
please listen to me!
stop ask!

it is not
that i don't want
to be
heard

but i just
don't want
a scene

i
am
not
right

that is why
i choose
to
left

i may have
a
future

and in second
i can
lose it

i am not
holding tight
to anything
anyone

i try
to be
independent

i want a
help

but now
is the
most wrong
time

i have this
puzzle that
i can
not resolve

it is not that
i am
stupid

somehow i choose
to let it
be

do you care?

2009-05-24T12:59:00.002+07:00

breathing is a gift from God.
happiness is a gift we choose.
trouble is a gift we can not resist.
death is a gift we can not predict.

now i want to try :

refuse the gift from God.
choose no gift.
resist an event.
predict the end.

i am powerless

Crap

2009-05-23T20:15:00.002+07:00

friends were complaining
friends is writing
i am me
i am an locked black box

i don't choose to be this
but i'm not saying i don't want to be one
it is a secret
some people know
and they don't really care

do i care?

it's not about friendship
neither about relationship
it's just a truth
of a real person

i maybe not be dangerous
but i will
because i was
and i can't predict it

i am not talking a bout a game
nor a lie
a truth i have been keeping
i have not resolved

i don't say i enjoy it
but i must
i breathe, eat, sleep
i live with it

you may thing i am a joke
just a drama queen
my life yes is a drama
and i am the main actress

i am not getting paid
i get no advantage
but i'm not saying that i am the victim
and i am not the controller

this is a roller coaster
but you will not puke
dizzy will not come to you
it does not even amazed you

this is not an entertainment
never a story
maybe a history
but sure it is a life

been fighting so i don't have to take medicine
so the world don't have to find out
that i am an ill
i need to be alienated

maybe i don't want to
but i have made some victims
eight are down
how many more?

one is dying
trying so hard to stay
i am not pushing away
and i don't want to

but somehow i am sure
i will hurt more
i don't want to continue
do i need to self-destruct (again)?

will people mourn then?
will they be lost?
will someone cry?
i will not bet

will there be an ending of this writing?
i am not sure
i can write more and more
without thinking

completely the same with my life
i can't find an ending
maybe i am not searching
because there's no point in it

tragic phone call

2009-04-29T19:17:00.006+07:00

30 seconds till the call ended.

R : diiit, jangan sedih lagiii
A : iya rann, aku usahain
R : iya deh, terserah..
A : siapa juga yang mau sedih??
R : ..aku

(pip) the call offed

it happened just some minutes ago
we've been fighting a lot lately

God

2009-04-29T15:12:00.003+07:00

monday, around 11:00 am. The english teacher asked my class something, "do YOU believe in GOD?" all of my friends said "yes" with their own reasons, then the turn came to me. i am a muslim, but with a quite long hesitation, i answered "sometimes, i doubt my belief". The class suddenly silent. The teacher asked again, with a slight shock on his face, "why?" i started to think, and the fastest answer that came up to my mind is ""it is hard to believe in something that is abstract". The class started to buzz.

i have a secret. that is not why i doubt it. when preasures are pushing you hard, when you just want to be a regular person in people's eye, when you don't want to be the topic of talking, when you don't want your loved one knows about your darkest secret, that is the way to answer the question that you are secretly avoiding.

i haven't written any post for months, and i suddenly back with this kind of topic. in the end, i want to ask every people who end up in my blog,

"have you doubted your GOD in your belief?"

Hurts

2009-03-14T18:22:00.004+07:00

every time i say i miss you
my heart pounds so fast that it hurts
you say you miss me too, but i don't know
i'm not sure
you said you'd be there, and i waited
you'd never come
i was lied
and no, i don't care
just don't want to lose you, because i'm adoring another
but you give me no easy way to do it
boy, i love you
i just wish you feel the same way
sad to say that i am crying now
it's been a long time ago since i cried while i'm writing
don't you know i'm dying to see you tonight?
you didn't show up, and i thought something bad happened
but hey, that's not it, you ended up in your guy's crib
are you fingers broken, so that you can't text me?
are you deaf, so you can't call me?
i always give my attention to the wrong person
damn!

do i want you outta my life?
do i need it?
i need a hug, because i'm too vulnerable
i don't wanna betray you, but please help me
no words can describe it better than
you disappoint me

lalalala

2009-03-13T22:24:00.003+07:00

lalalala sunday is the day! yea, the day that my dearest rinda will turn 16! HA finally, i'm not the only one who is 16 hahahahah ;) i asked her what does she want for birthday, she said boyfriend ... just forget it, i can't turn myself to be a boy lalalala i should be sleeping now, still sick -_- i got this illness, called flu -_____________- i bet y'all know it good :( can't breathe now rrrr i hate it! had been dizy since tuesday till early this morning lalalala gosh, i just made a controversial plurk! waw and now syazka is bombarding me with question hmmmmmmmm is it that controversial? don't think soo lalalala tomorrow is still al-izhar olympic. what's that? a school festival, you know, that kind of thing -______- should do workshop tomorrow, but my MPK boss (ka dira) asked me to go to sawangan to do the ticketing HA that sounds a lot better! well, since adit will be there too ;) but i'm bored with school, i'm fucked up to be exact! grrrr lalalala i'm dead. i don't know what to say. my heart is a bitch now. i think if adit calls will be better, but i guess he's asleep now. hmmm i need someone. well, syazka is here hahaha but i need someone in the same room with me now ASAP! girls only, except ilham blahblahblah

i thought i'll never do it again
i thought you'll be enough for me
i love you, you love me
but i adore him

comeback

2009-02-19T18:26:00.003+07:00

okay, can you remind me when was my last post? hah sorry, just way too busy! grrrrrrrrr my friends complained about it hahahah well, he's not complaining, but he's kinda ask why. sooooooo i just wanna say hi actually -_- i have like a thousand things to be told, but i have a second only to write. fuck!

all i can say is, i am a scandal now. my teacher complains by making a fake information.oh what a loser teacher! and i had a lil misunderstanding with my bests, but we're cool now. i fought with adit a few days ago, we almost broke up. but at that time, he was so emotional, he cried and banged his head and elbow to the wall. i was so scared. at that time i could see how much i am needed by someone that i love. so that washed all the anger, and i forgave him, and we're so cool now! ah, i love you dit! :) oh yeah, there's something soooo important!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADITYA HARTAJI :)

wish you a lovely year, dear boy friend!♥

his birthday is on Tuesday, 17th February 2009. he's 16 nowwwwwwwww :D why i am so excited?? becaussse he likes the gifts i gave to him hihihi i gave him a wallet, a yellow clock, a paint of the cartoon version of me, and an artwork about sixteen reasons why i love him :) ahhh thanks God he likes it! buttttttt, i am sooooooo sad now because adit's kitten died yesterday, she was born in December! can you imagine how young she is and how cute she is now! my thought is with adit now :') why i am so sad about this, because i am the one who named that kitten and it was Bolu :) why? because she was so big like a bola and had a lot bulu. that's why i named her bola bulu! :D annnndddd the last story issssssssssssssssssss i will have a date this Sat! hahahaha okay, not a date, just a hang out with adit :) he promises me a full day treat! woohooooooooooooooooooo! i feel uncomfortable a bit about it, but he told me that if i do not agree with him, he'll be sad :( soooo, let's go! hahahah i want to wear something different, not a dress, not heels! ah i want to wear heels, but he told me don't! soooo a sweater and jeans and nike. simple, but i rarely use sweater for a hang out!

waaa time's up! time for dinner! haven't made the table yet, oops! better hurry before my mom gets angry! grrr soooo byebye :)

today

2009-01-10T22:23:00.005+07:00

okay, long time no post! ha. no actually, there was that post. nah, won't spill ;) hey, i just got my hair cut last monday, wanna see??

the bangs are too short, right?
i know, kinda dislike it, but hey! it's cool ;)

okay first, i just got a bad news. my bestfriends grandma has just passed away. wish hers soul is beside Him and heaven is the final place for her. Amen. My thoughts are with Amal's family. Be strong, Mal! :)

i just went home from PIM, just some hang out with adit hahahaha it was unplanned, i wanted to go there, to search for his birthday present and suddenly he told me that he was going to PIM, to drop her mom near PIM. ha. what a coincidence! :P so we didn't watch movie, we just hung-out. and you know what?? once, i told him that i want a necklace that is sold in Pompous, and today he bought me that necklace! damn! well, we shared. but he paid like 75% of it! damn! damn! damn! i've told him not to, but he insisted. wanna see? wanna see? it is kawaiiiiii! :D l.o.v.e. you, dit! :)

ha. that's the necklace, a lime green duck!
super kawaiiiiii :)
sorry if it is too hard to see, it is fluorescent and kinda transparent

oyea, before i went to PIM. i went to dharmawangsa square first. there i found this cutie ducky toothbrush holder, and i bought it! yea!

ha. cute, right?
sorry if the photo is kinda nasty hahaha

wawawa okay, now my head is empty. need to refill it! adit is calling, so ciao! :)

mess!

2009-01-06T18:21:00.003+07:00

we are nowhere

we are who we are

and who are we?

are we still the same?

are we still together?

do we love each other?

then what were we doing?

what did happen to us?

why do we keep on losing our control?

why do we keep on doing that thing again?

we say we love each other

but why are we still destroying each other?

we are young and restless
that's what people say
we are unstoppable and full of passion
that's what they say
we are so in love and crazy about each other
that's what we say
we are crossing the line
that is who we are

monologue.

2009-01-01T22:53:00.006+07:00

latelatelate. i promised my bf not to stay awake more than 00:00, so it is around an hour from now. well, happy 2009 everyone. ha, i don't make a big deal. like, so what? so my friends, spent the new year's eve at barcode, partying and blablabla. well, some part of me want to do it, but the other don't. why? i am not into the wilderness now. while they were partying, i spent the night with just a phone call with adit, same old phone call. nothing special, in fact, we had this small fight, and we ended crying together.

ha. am i tired? yes, i am. will i give up? maybe. how about my dream with him? still in the process. so, will i try my best? i think. he will be okay if he reads this? no. then why do i write this? because i want to. don't be selfish, girl. can't, i am myself selfish. i am mean. i am. he loves me. i do love him too. but i'm sounded not so in love. because i am not that in love right now. why? because i am tired. what? yes, i'm tired. no way. so what? is it okay if he finds out? he knows it already, i've told him a thousand times. i know, but to write it down here is not appropriate. so, what i must do? get myself together and hold everything together. how about my tiredness? i will be get over it. fine. so? what? how am i now? miserable. okay, but i will keep on trying, right? okay, if that's what i want. no, can't be that way. so? do i still want to be with him? fine, yes. why? because he is him. not explaining much. grr. i am you, explain it to yourself, myself. because only when i am with him, i feel useful. why? because when i was thinking to leave him, he told me everything. about what? who am i for him. his girlfriend, right? well, the reason why he wants me, he needs me. and that is? i am his strength. wow. yes. he told me that? yes. wow. i am the person who fills his days, who makes him wants to spend the day. are you sure? quite enough, well, yes. well then, it is a good reason to stick with him. yes, i know. i'll stick with him right? yes. just because of that reasons? maybe. then what happen if the used of i change, will i still stay? err, i will. i seem not so sure, why? nothing, i will stay. why? because however, i need him. for what? to be someone that will hold myself together when my vulnerablelity and my insecurity strike. do i trust him that much? yes. am i sure? not that much actually, but i must trust him. for what reason? still, he is my boyfriend. so status is everything? no. so? as long status can be the base, the reason why i must stay him, i think 'he is my boyfriend' can be the reason. why? he chose me, and still chooses me, and it means that he loves me, it is not a sin to "love the person who loves you". do i really think he loves me? no. so why? i feel it. aww. i win :)

maybe i'll be doing this lil stupid thing
for times. ha.

stranger by the day

2009-01-01T21:17:00.003+07:00

the more i drown myself into my world
the more i get lost in the reality

and i am the stranger now.

birthday day!

2008-12-28T18:17:00.005+07:00

soooooooooo yesterday was my birthday! i am 16 now hihihi :) sweet sixteen, i know i know :) you what's the sweetest present? my boy! yea he is :) yesterday morning he told me that he wanted to come to my house, around 5pm and i said okay, but i suggested him to come earlier, because i was afraid i have left the house to dinner out. i told him that i didn't want him to come to my house by himself, because by himself means that he had to take a cab, and i didn't want him to do that, what a waste of money! so at 4pm he showed up at my door, carrying a plastic bag hihihi i know that's the present! and i looked there were two presents! yay hahahah then he told me a thing, he went to my house by cab! and i was kinda sad, he lied to me :( but he did that for me hihihihihi :) and guess what? he took a cab from his house to PIM and PIM to my house! WTF right???? so then we went inside, and he asked me to open the boxed-present, so i opened it. and what inside it is ................................................... rubber ducky! yea i am so serious! he bought me rubber ducky! like i what i wrote here a couple posts ago, i wanted rubber ducky and he bought me! not just one, but three! yes, threeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! hihihi two smalls and one big, so it's like a mother duck with its ducklings hahaha and the other present is kerokeropi wallet hahahahha i told him that i probably won't use that wallet, it's just not so me, and he told that's fine hahahaha i love the rubber duckies! :) thanks, dit! :)

then around 6pm i went to Citos to dinner out at Dome with my parents and to drop adit so he could take a cab (again) to come home. but i asked him to stay for dinner, first he refused. but then, my mom and dad helped, so he stayed! YEAAAAAAAAAAAH hahahaha after the dinner my mom asked my dad would he like to watch Transporter 3 and he said yes. because i hadn't watched Twilight, so i chose to watched it and Adit stayed a lil bit longer to watched it with me hihihi :) so yes, we watched Twilight together at 21.25 and then i went home, and he went home too, with my his parents. thanks God he didn't go home alone, i'd told him that it is dangerous to go home alone at night, and he answered it like this "aku kan cowo raaan" oh yea, fuck with you sex! funny that his mom said what i've said hahaha so he went home with his parents who just from Cinere

sooooo for me, my sixteen birthday is perfecto! seriously! i have a great boyfriend who stayed with me at my birthday and i got rubber duckies for the present hahahaha i do love him! aaaargh, God let me be married by him on the nesxt ten years (ups :P) well, not that perfect, i got no surprise :( no best friend showed at my door, but hey they said "happy birthday" so i still am happy, they remember! :) and my birthday will be better if my phone doesn't suck! arrrrrrrrrrrrrggggh :)

okay, wtf with my phone!
i want to introduce you with my lil family
the rubber duckies! :)

it is the mom!
i call her Mama si Jambul
hahaha only Adit and I know what :D

so this one is Cimeng si Brutal
hahaha again, only Adit and I know the reason why :D
why is he brutal? because the orange paint on his beak is blepotan
to his face hahahaha

this one is Cipao si Imut hahaha
why imut?
because i think "Cipao" is sok imut hauhauhua

so this is the duckies with their Mama
so i am the real Mama hahaha :)
wished their Papa is here :(

okay, actually i want to post videos! i made videos with adit like a couple days ago, but i've tried to upload it ever since, but always failed :( i am sad huuu the videos are funny, for me! hahaha hey, i want to share happiness! so please pray for me so i can upload the video, kay? :)

badbad mooooddd!

2008-12-28T09:22:00.003+07:00

aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhh

my phone is broken! my-almost-die handphone is finally die! but in a way that i've never thought! it can't be charged! wtf grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i need my phone! i miss adit :( he is rarely online, so texting or calling is the ways t communicate with him huuuu well, there are another phones in my house though, but hey! i want to read all of the text he has sent mee :( what a birthday curse :(

okay, i'll be out for now! grr still angry, can't right much! actually i really want to tell everything about my birthday yesterday, but i am pisssed now! audhadalhdalda

birthday

2008-12-26T23:58:00.002+07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ME :)
sixteen now, wow!

sorry, can't write much! busy! i'm translating my dad's minutes of meetings hahaha
he pays me! yeah :P

wishlist!

2008-12-24T10:17:00.004+07:00

okay, three days to go (until whatt??) darn it! the birthday, my birthday! yaaaaaaaaaaaay hahahah i want presents! yesyesyesyes presents! nyah, kidding! no present will be just fine for me. birthday is just the day where your life will be oficially shortened, right? bbbut, i think i really do want a present hihihi oh daddy, can you grant me one of the things in my wishlist box?? pleasssssseeee huuuu you've owed me fish-eye lense since my junior high graduation! GOD! 6 months have passed, pop! grrr

so my mom asked me what kind of cake do i want for my birthday, and i said i want tiramisu, and yea, she's ordered one! yaaaaaaaaaaay even she won't give me a present, a cake will do! hahaha but mom, by giving me gladiator heels or oxford heels or ankle boot heels will make my birthday much cooler, you know! hahaha

and yea, i won't lie! i'm looking forward to be given something by adit hahaha well, he told before that he searched for the rubber ducky, but too bad he didn't find it! hu :( i told him before i want a book, the tittle is "identical" by Ellen Hopkins. oh gosh, she's a wonderful writer, i'm a fan! but my mom had bought me that book and i have finished read it! hahaha and i told him that i want a cow sleepers that was sold at Gramedia, and too bad (again!) the last time i went to Gramed, that sleepers had been bought hu and the last thing i told him what i want is Kambing Jantan the comic! yea, it is sooo funny! i've read some pages of it hahahahaha but hey, everything he'll give to me i'll accept gratefully! even no present will do, as long as he is still mine on my birhtday! :)

hmm do i want anything from my bests? aaargh i want a surprise! something like last year will be just fine! hey, i'm cleaning up my room now! :P but i think it won't happen. Amal is going to Jogja, and Acil is going to somewhere else, Vienda will be busy doing Bulcup X and i think Fika will be there too, for softball team maybe. i don 't know about rinda, but still think nothing will happen. that's fine, it can be the punishment for me for abandoning them for a time, right? :')

hahh, i should go now! must clean up my mess and take a bath! adit will come soon! he misses me, he wants to come over and i let him to (i miss him too!) ahhh still too lazy get my lazy butt away from this laptop, but i have to! grrr lazy lazy lazy ...

awwwwwww

2008-12-23T19:10:00.006+07:00

soooo like a month a ago, i went to aksara at Citos with my bf, and there was rubber ducky there! and yes, i wanted it! i still do want it, he laughed at me that time yeaaaa i know, childish! but i want it, cute-y hahahahah

and just minutes ago, adit texted me (so he's at PIM now, and i asked where was he going there)

Baru di gramed sm di pointbreak doang. Sblumnya ke citos, nyari si bebek kunying tpi ga ada :-( huu aksara payah !! Kmu nanti jgn lupa makan yah sayaang :-) aku makan di pim jg tpi gatau namanya apa. Nanti aku smsin kok :-)

awww i write it down just like what he sent to me! he searched for the rubber ducky i wanted! gosh, i am flattered! hahaha really!
he sure knows how to be loved more! :)

love you, lon! :)

sharing :)

2008-12-23T09:47:00.005+07:00

blaargh sorry haven't posted for a long time! bi-zi! hahaha kid! i hibernated myself from the internet, for no reason! weird, i know! sooo agaiiiiiinnnn i want to congrats my friends who just had their birthday! blarh, again, envy!

RAMANDA ANDRIAN
being 16 on 18th December 2008

DELIA WIBYGABILLA
being 16 on 20th December 2008

still waiting for my birthday to come! oh when oh when?? grr

bbbut today is another aniversarry for me and my bf! yippie! hahahaha four months!
yayyyy hahahaha he sent me a text earlier this morning, while i actually didn't remember about it (hey, i just woke up, okay?) hahahaha he sent me a sweet text, really :) hey i love him! i do, yes i do :) Oh God, please makes 9 years 8 monts fast and sweet hihihi (what's that? what's that?)

dit, you know i love you
and i know we're looking forward for a thing
the thing we've been dreaming
and wishing to come true
i'm yours, and you're mine
i wanna be the girl
who will always be there for you
who will always care about you
who will always love you
and loved by you
someday, i'll be right there for you
night and day, share a story with you
while waiting for the day
i am here, for you
hold your hand, bear-hugging you
kiss you gently, and i'll never get tired to say
"aku sayang kamu :)"

it is love :)

2008-12-21T01:19:00.004+07:00

wosh 01:20 in the morning, still awake and conscious hmm it must be the coffee that i drank earlier, must be a strong coffee! my mom just told me to go to bed, but still not feel sleepy! i'm texting adit now, well the texts are different now. just love, real. maybe i am love-drunk but hey, i am loved, and it is pure and beautiful :) lately we talk about our future. we, in ten years from now. small family. oh what a dream. but i really am wishing it will come true. even he is often pushy, but the way he stares to me everytime is pure love, and i love it (i love him for sure!) hmm still waiting for a reply from him, can't and won't blame him if he falls asleep. it's late now! hope he's asleep with a smile :) dear God, please watch him for me, k?

i love you just the way you are
because that's the 'you' who take me as i am
and i love it, i love you :)

Bandung!

2008-12-20T17:48:00.003+07:00

yohooooooooo ladieeessss (and boysssss) hihihi i'm at Bandung rrrright now! wohoooo! i shopped at Rumah Mode earlier and bought two blouses (one of it has a very sexy cleavage hahahaha), a vest, and (drum roll pleassseee!) a pencil skirt! nice baby yea! hahahaha but oh dear God, the skirt isn't in a good condition, something happen, just the ornament thought, but it sucks! grrrr but it's still hot! the vest and the skirt is a match, there's the dress too but i didn't buy it, a dress is still not for me, for now! o yea, i bought a purse at Mango at Paris Van Java, it's discounted but it's nice :)

well, now i'm going off because i have to get ready to go to a wedding, my pop's cousin i think! well, i don't know her or him, but i must go there :( hope the food is delicious hahahaha so byebye! :)

this is how do i look like now
hahahaha
uh-glyyyyy :|

and then i go change the clothes and here i am nowwww

still damn uuhhh-glyyy!

so what?

2008-12-18T18:40:00.003+07:00

woohoooo! sorry i didn't post yesterday! i was tooooo tired, you know! i came over to iti's house at Bona, since after school until 5 pm then moved to amal's house. i went home around 6 pm and i got grounded! FUCK! but hey, just now my mom told me that i can go to PIM tomorrow but only until 3pm, but hey, that's cool! sooooo it means that my plan with my bf (which i thought it'd be cancelled because of the grounded thingy!) won't be cancelled! yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay hahaha well, not much word for now! actually after school i had a realllll serious conversation with my bf, but i still don't know will i post the story here on not! because somehow it is just too beautiful! ask me, then i'll tell hihihi but maybe i'll post here. but for noww, i'll do something else than these hihihi i'm uploading songs at imeem so i can play it here. and nowww, ciao! :)

Promise Ring?

2008-12-16T17:39:00.006+07:00

woohoo! i'm becoming a frequent blogger right now, a good thing or a disaster you think? but hey, don't care! sooooooo i do miss my girls! but hey, whose fault is it? MINE! blargh hey girls, i wanna ask you all to hang out on friday after report thingy, can you? i've asked vienda and amal, but both of them can't make it. actually, i've promised my bf to go out on friday but i actually i want a loud crowd, cause i miss you! hah! i know i'm not a good person, asking for something here, but i'm just too afraid for the thought in their minds krikrikrik

soo today's school was an unworthy one blargh! there's this event that HAI magazine and Toyota YARIS made for my school, savety driving thingy. and then two band played on stage, one is Tiket (the name sounds so cheap, and their music is somewhat cheap too!) and the other is Twentyfirst Night! A new comer, with cool music. sooo their single "Tergila" is a sweet song, you know, about a guy who fall deeply in love with a girl. then later i told my bf that i gave this song for him hihihi eventhough the lyrics match from-him-to-me better! oyea, forget to tell! my bf played "senar" for the percussion which was played to welcome Toyota Yaris (kinda foolish) but fool me, i didn't bring a camera! well, not my fault though! he made me mad last night, so it's his fault ngahahahah (what did happen? tell ya later!)

after school, my bf and i went to Alfa Midi because i want to buy some drink at myDea so he could eat his Baba Rafi that he bought before we went there. because i was kinda hungry, i bought Ring and Vita Pudding at Alfa Midi, later i bought ice lemon tea at myDea. can you even believe that i spent 3,200 rupiahs on food and 5,000 rupiahs on beverage! kreziiiihhhh! so we sat at myDea and just having fun, you know, gr-bf time hahahaha so he ate his Baba Rafi and i ate my pudding first, but funny we finished at the same time! because my pudding was so small compared to his Baba hahahaha then i opened my Ring, but i ate it with a childish way. i put 5 rings on my left hand's fingers, one ring each! hahaha and everytime i ate from one finger, my bf would put another ring on it! and i joked that those were the wedding ring from him! hahahahaha then i came up with a much foolish idea, i put ten rings on my fingers, one each! then i asked my bf to take a picture with his phone and so he did! look below for the photos!

My Favorite!
sorry you need to turn your head
to right to see this picture correctly :D

hahhhhhh now i'm home, and i miss my bf already! wtf! hahahahaha i have nothing to do, and i am bored. thinking to call my bf, but i'm afraid of another fight hufff but i think i'll call him, soon hihihi sooooooooo ciao! :)

Envy!

2008-12-15T20:31:00.024+07:00

weyyyy i'm back! but i've lost my desire to tell the other two stories, so sorry! hahahaha i just want to congrats my friends who turns sixteen! (and fifteen! hahaha what a child :P)

DEANDRA ARMYNI
being 16 on 15th December 2008

FATIMA ANTAMIA
being 16 on 14th December 2008

HANA KASHIRA
being 16 on 13th December 2008

GHINA ADIYARIANNI
being 15 on 7th December 2008

soon my friend RAMANDA ANDRIAN will turn 16 too on 18th December 2008 and myself? i have to wait for twelve days so that i can turn myself into sweet sixteen blaaaarrrrrghhh

i want to be 16 ASAP! boo :|

Left-Eyed

2008-12-15T18:16:00.006+07:00

whoaaaa so many things happen todayyyy! errrr which one first i want to tell? hmm first is about myself, than about me and my girls, and the last one is about me and my bf. hmmm last save the last one for the last hahahaha

sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo this stupid thing just happened like two hours ago! i wanted to make a cow's eye egg (HAHAHAHA), but not on the stove, but in the microwave. how? just like poaching an egg! but because i was stupid, i forgot to do something important! i should heat the water first for a minute in a hi temperature before pouring the egg into the water, but i thought nothing would change the taste, so i didn't mind too much. but because the water wasn't hot, i cooked the egg two times longer than the usual. i used 2 minutes in low tempt, 1 minute in med-low tempt, 30 seconds in med tempt, and 20 seconds in hi tempt. after i thought the egg was well-done, i got the egg out of the microwave, and spin the bowl slowly. and suddenly, POOOSSSHHH!!! the egg yolk popped and the extremely hot water jumped from inside the egg yolk, directly to my right eye! wahahdalhdjahesualhda it hurt like hell! (soory, exaggerating! hihihi) but it was hurting! well, not my eye ball, but still around my eye! blarrrgh, then i told my mom and she gave me bioplacenton (i think that's how to write it hihihi) to put it on my burned eye. it soothed a bit, but that's fine! so wanna see the scar? (not interesting though!)

do you see that lilttle whity thing
around my right eye? yea, that's it! grr

and do you know what? just about 30 minutes after the 'accident' my bf came to my house! grr and good thing he didn't laught about it hahaha but kissed my right eye a couple times, you know a get-well-soon-kiss hihihi i like it :) and now i'm hoping that my eye will be back to normal. amen! please pray for me! :)

nyanyanya so that's the story about me. a bad story. zz i have two stories more, i have to move my ass from the laptop, it's dinner time and i haven't fixed the table yet! hahaha i'd better go now before my mom yells! hahaha ciao!

New Lay-Out

2008-12-14T17:33:00.004+07:00

weheee i'm back, bitches! hahaha okay, i update my blog, well, re-layouting it, so what cha think? cool? hope soo, cause i think this one is pretty nice hahaha hmmm i have nothing to say actually, but hey i want to show off my new shoes, later on but! well, they're lame (they? yeah! three pairs, bitches!) just some discounted shoes, so i think they're last season item, but what the hell! my mom let me bought three pairs hahahaha show the shoes later! ciao!

i want ankle boot heels nowwwrrrgh!

Blah

2008-12-14T09:51:00.004+07:00

hey, it's 09:51 in the morning. wait. morning? am i sure? wthvr hahahaha well, actually my bf wants to come to my house today, just for a pit stop because actually he wants to go to my friend's house to practice percussion, but i tell him that he can't come to my house because my mom says no when i ask for her permission, but actually i don't ask her! i don't want him to be at my house now. i miss him. but i don't want him here, understand? so, actually i had a conversation with him last night on the phone, and suddenly it went wrong, and we both cried hahahaha it's a private thing, so won't tell ya! but things has back to normal now, thanks God! yay :)

now it's 14:08, sorry to leave it this long, i got something else to do hhihihi and now i'm bored. so ciao!

Life These Days

2008-12-12T20:34:00.004+07:00

hey, sorry i haven't posted anything these days, too busy. well, except for the post, the last blog post. i am a mess now, really am a mess. shit!

so, here's the thing, i am numb. okay, that's just a shit. the real thing is, i spend too much time with my bf, and i abandon my girlfriends. i know i am in wrong, but they (well, actually she) just talked to me once, and then that's it. i know nothing else. i only know nothing will work if the system is like this. and it is not working. so there are 6 girls, two are out from my school so they don't really know or understand about this (i think, blame me if i am wrong), two are not so close with me but i know they are pissed but they remain silent, one is kinda the most bocah hahaha well, it's easier to talk to her, she just being herself. and this is the hardest girl, she's the one who talked to me, but that's it. actually i'm so close to her, but i don't know in this case, i feel that she's the roughest (again, blame me if i am exaggerating) i'm not a starter, i need someone to start something like it used to. but i am in wrong, so i must try. but i'm too stupid. and i think people won't make it as an excuse.

sorry, break time now! my bf calls hihihi (hate me girls if you don't like this)

okay, break is over. and i am tired now. i am IMing with one of my coolest girl, Amal. well, i miss her, i'm having fun, for now. oyea, the phone went off because my bf is too tired, unyunyunyu sleep tight, diit :) he went to my house today, only for an hour, but that's enough :) grrr i really want to go out from this blog post now! my mood is not a friend now blargh bye!

Trouble

2008-12-04T18:46:00.002+07:00

i'm so not in the mood. i don't want to write. and i really am numb.

people who are always there for me,
i'm sorry
i know i'm not a good friend
i can only write those word,
here
on the gloomiest day, they were there
cheered me up
and just be there
now, i have what i'd been looking for
and here i am
without them
abandoning them
hurting them
do i still have the place to apologize truly?
i have no defense
i'm in the fault
i am a failure

it does hurts me, i hurt them.

I Lie

2008-11-16T02:04:00.002+07:00

02:04

it is 02:04 in the morning and i still can't go to bed.. actually i was ready to go to bed at around 00:30 but when i was about to turn my laptop off, the screen showed the unfinished-to-watch 90210 episode 7, which was distracted because adit called. sooo i continue to watch it until the end and add the next episode on my watch-list ahh nice! can you believe that while i was having a phone call with adit, i fell asleep and later because of 90210 my sleepiness gone?? WOW blahhh actually i promised him that i'd go directly to bed after the phone was off but errr that's not the truth now ... i feel kinda terrible, i lie blarrrrgh i need to go to bed like now! okay okay, lemme turn my laptop off and jump to my bed. hope i can go to sleep instantly, wish me luck! bye peeps! :)

Nadya's tag

2008-11-15T11:25:00.004+07:00

11:28

hey peeps, i'm here but i'm sorta not in the mood zz i did something bad last night while i'm on the phone with adit aisdjaaadj hate myself.. but now i'm not in the mood because some little thing he hasn't done.. blah nothing too big, but i wish he does that.. you know, so we don't have to play hide and seek anymore ... so i decide not to reply his text, which came minutes ago, soon

soo, i'm all alone in my house, my mom went to shopping to GI and my dad is working at his office, i think.. but i don't care, my mood is not on the happy mood blaargh, actually my cousins invite me to go to Dufan but i'm just not that happy. and now i think, i'll do nadya's tag so i won't get bored for the next 30 minutes hahaha so here it goes!

EVERY FIVE THINGS IN YOUR LIFE!

The rules to fill this are:

1) You own a blog where you're gonna post this to,

2) You currently feel bored,

3) You won't skip any question,

4) You're alive (doh!), and

5) You're gonna send this to 5 friends to fill these up.

Firstly, describe the current you in 5 words:

Alone and somehow not happy

5 things you love about life:

Love
People
Experience
Challenge
Hate

5 famous people you'd love to meet:
Barrack Obama

Secondhand Serenade
Oprah Winfrey

Leighton Meester
Perez Hilton

5 movies you love:
Ratatouille

Finding Nemo

The Incredibles
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Transformers

5 professions you'd love to have:

EIC

Journalist

Lawyer

Attorney

CEO

5 best authors:

Ellen Hopkins

Ellen Hopkins
Ellen Hopkins
Ellen Hopkins
Ellen Hopkins

5 inspirations:
Peeps
Dreams
Reality
Love
Tragedy

5 favorite stuff:

handphones
iPod
laptop
my room
bracelets

5 things you hate:

House lizard
Dishonesty

virus
broccoli
being late

5 favorite places:
My bed room
the computer room
school
mall with book store
cinema

5 girls/guys you are currently liking:

my bf
my lil bro
my six cool girlfriends
my bebs & her boy
my bf

5 things you wanna improve more about yourself:

less bipolar
tidiness
my brain
politeness
heart

5 things you would take to a deserted island:

f&b

electricity
my gadgets
best peeps
tent?

5 places you wanna visit:

China
Hawaii
South Africa
Japan
NYC

5 things you really want:

my bf
more allowance
more credits
new lenses
food!

5 songs make you cry most:
It's Not Over - SS

Why - SS
Like a Knife - SS
The Truth - GC
Empty - TC5

5 impossible dreams:

score A in every subjects
become a star
meet him now

go to heaven directly
have my own house instantly

5 dreams in the future:
heaven will be my last home
be a good wife and mom
have a wedding/honeymoon in bali/hawaii

have my own company

be the best me

now, send this to 5 people.

and the people are.. Syazka, Adri, Winnie, Deandra, & Vienda!
i know some of them don't want to do this :P

Winnie's tag!

2008-11-12T16:59:00.007+07:00

17:35

10 Things About Who I Am
okay, i'll bored you, so just leave :D

· I'm a gadget freak!
not that freak, but i can be immobile for days only with my laptop + internet! plus camera and television ohh God, that's bad!

· I love my dear Adit, so much!
too much? maybe blurrrgh but lemme enjoy the love before it fades away, okayy? well, he misses me more frequently than i miss him, so actually he loves me so much too! so make it an equal, so it'll be fine hahha

· I love green! esp. lime green!
okay, my new laptop is green, the mouse is a frog so it is green, my bedroom walls are green, my current bed sheet is green, my phone holder is green, my hand soap bottle is green, my trash bin is green, my mini table is green, my clocks are green, and err i can't remember anything more zz

· It's hard for me to balance my life
because i was single, i was so damn close with my girl, but now i'm not so yeah, it's not like it used to be. i have no same class with my girls, so it's hard for me to catch up with them, and myself likes to be close with my bf grrrr i miss my girls :(

· I hate house lizard!
actually i don't know the english for "cicak" but i do hate it! my mom stepped one, but actually i felt sad hahahaha

· I'm so in love with candies like Magic Pop, chupachups, and cotton candy!

you know, Magic Pop the popping candy tastes sooo good! but i don't like the lemon flavored one, it's an eww! chupachups will never bored me and i miss the taste of cotton candy! my bf owes me two cotton candy! Hihihi

· I'm a big spender right now puhh

grr when i was single, i can use 100rb credits for months! Now less than a month it’ll disappear just like that grrr i’m not complaing, but i just wish my mom will be more generous huff

· I can’t ride a bike!

Blahhh so what? You can laught at me, but don’t make a big thingy

· I can do my own saving!

Well, nothing to be proud of actually, but i find out that it is hard for my other friends to save their money ckckck

· Messy is my friend
my room used to be sooooooooooooooo messy! but right now it's just okay hahahaha i know it's not tidy, but now i can step and sleep on the floor without nothing bugging me hahahahaha well, it's a progress though!

1. Each blogger must post this rules.
2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Blogger that are tagged need to write about their own blog about their ten things and post. these rules . You need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names .
4. Don't forget to live them a comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog.

long time

2008-11-12T16:56:00.003+07:00

16:58

wohooooo it's been a real long time since the last post hahaha i've been tagged by two nice girlfriends, winnie and nadya! because winnie tagged me first, so i'll do hers first, then nadya's. so see you later, like minutes later hihihi bye!

Two months!

2008-10-23T19:44:00.006+07:00

HAPPY TWO MONTHS to ME & ADIT ♥

sorry i haven't posted anything for a quite time
busy with school stuffs, rrgh fuckfuckfuck!
but hey, i've spent two wonderful months lately
thanks to my dear Aditya Hartaji!
i love you, cahhhh :)

About to Sleep

2008-10-13T21:00:00.002+07:00

21:00

it is 9 PM and i must go to bed bluurgh i promised to adit before on the phone because suddenly i had this weird pain at my right stomach errr what's wrong? blah! but i think i really need to go to sleep, i didn't have much time to sleep last night and if i sleep fast tonight, i'll be able to wake up early, around 4 AM, so i can study chemistry for the test uurgh wish me luck! :) so so so after this i'll go downstairs to have a drink than go to bed huff if that sooo, Bye! :)

Phone Call

2008-10-13T18:52:00.002+07:00

18:52

well, here i am, posting another post hahahaha i'm calling adit now, wanna say hello? :P hihihi err he asked me to call him because he has no credits hahaha he has two phone numbers and none with credits zz hahaha however, i'm helping him with the math hw hahaha i'm not that smart actually, but i'm better than him :P kidding! he passed the first math exam and i didn't blahhhh hahahahaha it's not the first time we do homework on the phone, even somehow i don't really like it bbbut it's fun hihihi i think i'll be off again soon. it's kinda hard to type, talk, and sing hahaha Bye!

After school

2008-10-13T16:21:00.002+07:00

16:25

fuaahhh, i just got home from school, no one at home blahhhh but i must to do things! i must study for my chemical test tomorrow errr i think i forget the material zz then i must continue my math and pkn hw blaaahhhhhh well, i want to copy adit's biology hw too hihihi he lent me his book this morning blablabla i just sign in for a while, i think i'll be back at night but i'm not sure either hahahaha i want to copy first and continue the pkn, i think hahaha then i'll study at night hmmnyaaahhh boooorrrrrriiiiiing but yea, i'm off! Bye! :)

adit wanted to come to my house today
but i didn't allow him hahahaha
well, my mom's out and the house is empty
i'm doing the rrrright thing, aight?

Puzzled

2008-10-12T21:31:00.005+07:00

hey, i just read one of my good friend's blog, it was adani's and her blog makes me think. her newest post, it's about love and physical contact hahaha a lot has happened to me these days and her blog is a good wake up call hahaha well relax, i'm still a virgin ;)

nice blog, nii :)

well, it isn't late now but i have school tomorrow oh sooo fuckious! rrrgh why school? i really do need to sign off and go to bed, but i still can't! i'm not sleepy and i'm texting adit for the moment hihihi rrgh but i have to blahhhhh hmmnyah, i'm off now! Bye! :)

look, look! i just changed my blog's name! :D

are kisses necessary?

Good Life

2008-10-08T10:37:00.013+07:00

heeyyy everybody! nyah, finally i'm in a real good mood :) well, sorry i didn't post anything on the rest day of October 6th until now hihihi on October 6th, i thought i need a fresh air so i decided not to post anything, bbbut on October 7th, i was just too busy hahahaha did something good happen? YEA! :):):)

rrgh actually on October 6th he asked me what's wrong, because i wrote at personal message at wlm about my so called disappointment at him, and told him a little and he felt sorry and i knew he was so sorry, well he told me he didn't want to be someone who i don't like and he'd try not to be that someone aww kinda sweet hahaha because i was not in the mood and i didn't want him to feel terrible so i changed the topic and told him that we'd talk about it the tomorrow

so the next day i went to PIM to go for movie with my dear friends and yea, with my adit :) (let's forget about the bad things) so after we got there, we went to Sushi Groove for some Japanese food, then to XXI to but some ticket for I Know Who Killed me (it sucked rrgh), then we splitted up, girls went to Ace Hardware to search a present for my friends, guys went to Timezone for some playground hahaha but i went to Fuji to buy some credit rrgh, having a boyfriend do make me a spender hahahaha well, Adit was accompanying me went down to Fuji ihihi but fuck! the Fuji guy said that XL credits are a big zero rrrgh fuckfuckfuck then adit told me that he could text the guy at his house to send the credits for me, because i really need it, i said yes. so then here came the credit, yeeeey hahahaha then i said thank you, i'll repay you later hunn :) but he said no, he didn't want me to repay him oh goood, that's not right, because i bought a big amount one, but he insisted me, he said it's just once in a while and he'd give my money back if i repay him aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww how lucky i am :) well, actually i used my credit to text and call him either nyahahahaha but btw, thanks Dit! i love you :)

so then, we went to Timezone to meet up with the boys. because he wasn't playing anything so he stood beside me, then he hugged me, well, he hugged me before. but he said he's sorry for changing to be someone who hurt me aaawww, i couldn't say anything but just hugged him tighter hihihi well, i was holding my tears actually, i couldn't cry there! then he whispered to my ears i love you so much, ran then he kissed my left cheek, fast and sweet. oh God, i was speechless! rrgh tell me i am lame, but that was the first time he kissed my cheek and there were a lot of people there, i'd feel uncomfortable if somebody see us, but thanks God, no one :P well yea, like 5 minutes later i kissed him back, saying i love you so much too, diit! then he hugged me even tighter hihihi i like it, i'm his :)

then we went to the movies studio, took our seat. it's a four seats, so i'm with adit, and Amal with Radit hahaha what a name sound a like hahahahah so as i sit down beside my bf, we held hands :) then i laid my head on his chest, hugging him and he started to play with my hair and rubbing my cheek, oh what the usual adit i love :) i hugged him so tight like i'll never let him go, and i tickled him for a while hihihi i like the way he played with my hair, soft and tender hahahaha i'm blushing noww hihihi then suddenly he moved my hand, from around his waist to around his neck hihihi i didn't mind it, because that way i could play with his hair :) then he continued rubbing my cheek, but suddenly his hand moved to the center, he played with my lip! OMFG, my mind became really racy that time! because if i looked to his face, it's only 5 centi meters away! oh no, did he want to kiss me? nyahhh, his fingers stayed quite long there, and i knew, he was looking at me, and well, i could feel his heartbeat that time, pounding fast. rrgh i didn't what to do, well actually i wanted to kiss him nyahh, but wasn't it too fast? he kissed my cheek for the very first time, then a real kiss? oh am i so lame? old-schooled? nyahhhh i almost turned my face to him, but suddenly remembered what my friend has told me once, don't give him all out, and i was like, hold yourself raan, hold yourself! nyahnyahnyah and then his fingers moved backward to my cheek huff i felt relieved and kinda regret it hihihi but i didn't want make it like a kiss & make up, remember? i was mad at him, soooo i did a good move, right? then, until the movie ended, i stayed on hugging him, well more like clinging on him hahaha and he stayed on holding my hands :)

so after the movies, some of my friends went home or karaoke at Poins Square and i went home too so did Adit. When i talked to my mom inside the car, i smelled something from nowhere that i knew but my mind was working slow nyahhh then when i was home, when i was about to change my clothes, i was kinda shocked? hahaha the smell that i smelled is adit's! oh my oh my, how could it be? hahahaha his smell was on my t-shirt's left sleeve but nothing on the right one hahahha was it maybe because we hugged too much? rrgh i don't know hahaha later i called him and told him about it and he laughed hahahaha but then he told me that he got my smell too on his t-shirt's right sleeve hahahaha silly? uh huh :P and yea, i ended the day with another sweet phone call hihihi finally :)

actually i didn't really talk about it with him because i just couldn't rrgh i was just too afraid to break down in front of him! i know how bad i can be if i have my break down time and i didn't want him to see it rrgh well, i don't regret it either not to talk about it, because it's not his fault only. somehow i think that yea, i was just sooooo selfish! it was lebaran time, and lots of people went to his house so he got busy and i just couldn't understand him that time rrgh i hate it zz well, the good thing is we're fine now and i love it :)

Still Awake

2008-10-06T03:29:00.003+07:00

03:29

okay, i am still here rrrgh but i feel a lot better :) thank you for my sweet tikha who hears my fuckious thought for the first time, i love you girl, but hey, don't go offline just like that hahaha and then thanks for funny emil who suddenly became my student hahahaha he surely put laughs on my face hihihi i'll teach you again, ttyl aight? hahahaha and last but not least, my extra dear ilham :) thank you for always be there for me since more than three years ago, you are my original mood charger :) sorry that i stole your bed time just to hear my bad feeling hehehe :D hoammm, i am getting tired and in the mood for bed, finally! hahahaha i really need to jump to my bed now before i completely lost my sleepiness hahahaha bye :)

finally, i sleep with a little smile on my face :')

Fail to Sleep

2008-10-06T01:07:00.007+07:00

01:06

aaaaaaarrrgh i just can't go to sleep! my mind is still too racy rrrgh fuck it! i need something to make me go to bed, ASAP! blahblahblah i don't wanna lose him :( yea, i say it, i just can't.. oh meen, what's wrong with meeee?? is this have something to do with his dream and Maroon 5 - Nothing Last Forever? godgodgod, please no :( surely, he's not that nice, no way a person can be so perfect. have i mention that he's changed? i hate our phone calls lately, dit :| they are all disappointing and hurting.. there are three phone calls i think, and the last one, completely breaks my heart.. i know you were sleepy and tired, but that was not how we used to end our conversation, no sweet dream blablabla, no i love you, no the usual you :( so sorry, if i'm questioning where are we now, because just in a snap of fingers, you've changed. God tell me, am i dreaming?

It's you who promised me not be a disappointment
but tonight, you're a big one :'(

Troubled

2008-10-06T01:02:00.004+07:00

uurrgh what's wrong with me? it's 01:02 in the morning and my eyes are still too swollen so it hurts rrgh :( Oh gosshhhh, i don't know why i wrote that thingy before.. too much pain? rrgh i don't know! well, my love life isn't that nice actually right now, kinda bumpy i know! but that.. it was just too much, or it's not? aaargh i really need to go to sleep huff he disappointed me.. in some ways hmmnyahnyahnyah but i know i disappoint him too..

maaf dit, tapi aku main kaca lagi.
aku ga tahan, capek :(

Disappointment

2008-10-05T22:04:00.010+07:00

DISAPPOINTED?

do you know, it does hurts
you're changing, i know it
you can say you are not, but i'm the one who feels it
i said i'm okay, but you don't even can tell the difference in my voice
can you hear it, it's trembling
my tears, yea right there, they're showing
those beautiful drops bursting down my cheeks
don't blame me, but i'm questioning it
do we still share the same thing, the same feeling?
sorry that i start to doubting you
but i can find your love nowhere, i'm not numb, am i?
pardon me for my sensitiveness, but actually you know it right
somehow you don't feel the same anymore
whom to blame?

thank you for stop saying i love you :|

Life Lately

2008-10-04T21:17:00.010+07:00

HAPPY LEBARAN EVERYBODDDDYYYYY! :) i know it's 3 days late, but who cares? better late than never, aight? hahahaha well, actually i'm not in the mood rrrgh but let me cheer myself a lil bit by sharing the love of lebaran hihihi oooo i'm so into the veronicas right nooowww! i know it's kinda late, because their latest album out in 2007 nyahahaha but hey, they really got the hip powerpop that make me can't stop to dance! oh what a mood charger ;) the veronicas is actually a band from oz that consist of two girls, twins actually, Jessica and Lisa Origlaso. they look exactyly the same, as expected from identical twins, but Jessica is taller and skinnier while Lisa is a lil bit shorter and slim, i like Lisa more :) well Jessica is too skinny for me actually, everytime she sings, her cheek bones pop out hahaha but hey, she plays guitar! cool huh? oh God, yall must watch their This Love vidclip! the lyrics itself is sooo beautiful, but the vidclip is uh-maze-ing! seriously! i think both of them starred themselves with their boyfriend, uurgh romantic! and btw, Lisa's boyfriend is hot! :P

well, enough with the happy thingy and the veronicas, it's my time nnnowww! rrrgh like i told you before, i'm not in the mood rrrgh my period is coming, so the PMS thingy is really biting my mood and yea, i have the mood swings too blah :( aaaaaaaaargggghhhh i miss my adiiiit, my boyfriend :( well, it's been twelve days since the last time we met each other and four days since the last time we had our real phone calls hmmmmmmm i do need a time machine or teleport machine rrright now! i'm not lying, i miss him a lot! but actually, the PMS and mood swing just make the condition even worse rrrgh there were a little time for me to talk with him in MSN and he was soooo sweet and nice like usual, but my condition somehow disappoint him.. oh, what a disappointment i am :( what i really hate about this is i look soooo selfish and i do feel like that hmmmm can someone kill me just for a second? because in the end, it is him who feels in the wrong and that's not right! well, a lil bit actually.. he can't call me or text me because he gets no pulsa right now, i have it but i don't know if it's okay to call him in some times, i'm afraid he is busy. bbbut, today i tried to call him twice and none of it got answered! well i thought he's busy, so that's fine. but he was online later, and he told me that his phone was in silent mode and left inside his room. nyyyaaaaah, i was kinda pissed of, HAH! see, that selfish side of me must be proud rrrgh i shouldn't be mad at him, because he explained it and i know actually that there's no way he didn't answer my phone purposely, he is too kind to do that, i know he misses me too (can you see how lucky i am to have him and how bitchy i am to treat him like that?)

now, because he'll laugh and yes, i love his laughter! it does gives me smile on my face :) or maybe let him play 'catch me if you can' using our hands oh God, this guilty feeling is really biting me rrrgh i'm the bad one, he's the good one. i'm the devil, he's the angel aaaaaaargh can someone send me to him directly right now? i miss him, but what i did was something bad :( i just want to hug him for a very long period hmmmmm i do miss his touch :( i love it when his hands are on my head, rubbing my hair softly rrrrrgh i do want him now with me! can't forget how ticklish it is when he's rubbing my cheek, he told me because he's using his feeling (in other way it means 'i love you' :)) i want to tickle him rrrighthihihi it's just a silly thing we're used to play together :) so the game is like he'll hold my hand but than i'll pull my hand back, and he'll put his sad face on so i'll give my hand back but when he wants to hold it, i'll pull it back, again hahahaha well, we'll do it for a couple of time until he gets sick of it and hugs me, saying whatever, but i got you :) aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh i feel it right there, when he hugs me, i feel his heartbeat, somehow like telling me that i'll be fine with him. there, in his arms, i know i am safe, i am loved :) you can see it right now, can't you? why i'm soooo in love with him :)

hmmmnyahhh, at least i want to hear his voice on the phone, his i-miss-you-too voice is something i need now and not to forget his very laughable laughter hihihi i'm so in love with the complete package oh him :) don't you know, once, i had an 8-hour-phone-call with him! crazy? yeaa, but i like it hmm nah, i lovvvveeeee it! and i'd love to have it once more :( on the phone we talk about everything, about jokes, family, even about my or his or our problems. thanks God, You send me a very understanding lover :) but mostly we talk about how much we love/miss each other, his fourteen cats and kittens, my stuffed animals, our dislikes in house lizards (mine) and cockroach (his) hahahah we even make alter egos of both of us. first one is Meng-Sapi1/Sapi2 hahahaha it's because he calls his cats with Meng, not meong or puss hahahaha weird? absolutely! the first time i know it, i laugh my butt out hahahaha i still laugh about it right now, but i'm used to it. it's kinda cute actually hihihi and why Sapi1/Sapi2? because i sleep with two stuffed cows hahahaha and the other alter ego is Adit Kecil & Ranti Kecil hihihi we pretend to be us in smaller and younger version, his version is kinda the same, but my little me is sooooo flirtatious with Adit Gede hahaha well, that's how we call ourselves, Adit Gede & Ranti Gede hahahaha kinda silly, i know! but who cares? we love it! :)

ooooooohhh, i'm getting tired writing these things here but nothing has changed, i still miss him way sooooooooo much! there are a lot other great things about him, but i don't want to share it hahahaha i don't want to envy you hihihi :P well, i can give you a little! i like the way he hold my hand so tight until i can't move, in every time i'm about to do bad thing or going to leave. by that, i know he doesn't want me to get hurt, he'll be there to take care of me :) why i'm sure about this? haven't i told you that he doesn't smoke? amazing! he even can't drink soda, so he's not a drinker, i'm so sure about that! well, i'm not a smoker either, but i drink actually hihihi so i need someone who can take care of me, someone who able to remind me, to tell me to stop, even someone who will get angry at me if i cross the line because he know it is getting too far. and i believe he can be that somebody :) aaah, see! i keep on sharing story about him, but that's fine actually, because i will not share him with anybody else, never!

huaaaaahmmm, i'm starting to feel sleepy either, i think i do really need to sign off from this post. oh God, when i go to sleep, will you send me to the world of dream where i can meet my adit there? i really do need to meet him, ASAP! rrrgh oo GodGodGod! i'm about to lose my mind, i have to go now! Bye! :)

Late Night

2008-09-07T15:57:00.004+07:00

haaaaaaaaaaaaaay everybody! once again, i'm way sooooo over the moon baby! whywhywhy? hmmm i had this sweet phone call with my darl hihihi :) how long? three hours! yeaa for real! hahaha start at around 00:00 until 03:00 woohoo what a record nyahahaha because all i know is he easily feels sleepy, but last night he said he's still doing fine hahahaha well, we talked about everrrrything, nah not that everything but at least we talked about so many things nyahahahaha hmmmmmmm oh gosh, i miss his voice already! aaaaargh like thousand times he told me that he missed me and surely i felt the same way for himmm unyunyunyu aaaannnd, for the first time he said aku sayang kamu aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa he has written it like everyday in his texts but i've never heard he said those three words before! my God, my heart pounded sososooooo fast uuurgh i love you too, diiiit! muchmuchmuch awaw hihi :)

and rrrrright now, i'm dying once more ngahahaha kid! but yea, i feel so terrible right now because i really need to hear his voice hmmmmmm i can just call him, but nahhh i'm so fucked up with phone calls, i want him rrright beside me nownownow! supppeeerrrr ASAP hahhhhh thank God tomorrow is school day, yea fuck with the school thingy, but at least i can meet him, rrright? hunyuuuuu i miss his touch aaaaaa the way he rubs my hair, my chicks, my hand aaaaaaa i miss it soooo bad! i wish i can hug him right now, right here! and ow yea, i wanna play his chicks! hihihi he has this kinda weird chicks, it's sooo flabby ngahahaha that's why i call him jelly chicks hihihi aaaaa i miss him completely, nothing not to be missed from him! and yea, i wanna tickle him hahaha he is sooooo ticklish, like at every part of his body hahaha his waist, his back, his neck, and even his palms! hahahaha but heeeey, that's how i love him :)

goshgoshgosh i need to get out of here fast, or i'll write nothing but crappy swearing hahahha i miss him 100% uuurrrrgh i hate how this missing feeling biting my mind urrrrgh well, at least i'm texting him right now hihihi way not so satisfied, but hey, at least i can still chit-chat with him, rrright? so that's ittt, i'll be too busy texting him again hahahahaha bye! :)

Love is in the Air

2008-09-06T09:34:00.005+07:00

whoaa it's an early day in September and i have things in my thoughts huff so tiring :( but fuck it up, yeaaaah haahahha i've been fasting for about six days and somewhat i'm doing fine. errr so here's the thing, yesterday i got my first mood swings since so long time ago and i handled it way so bad aaaaargh fuckfuckfuck i cried, yea i cried like two or three times or maybe more than that aaargh! why? i don't really know exactly, but i think i know. well this suddenly changing in my relationship status somehow is the trigger. whywhywhy oh why God? hmm i can't truly explain it, but i'm pretty sure that's the itsy bitsy thingy.

bbbbbut! suddenly, my superguy save me out of the blue yeaaaa! oh God, i'm soooo in love with my hubby baby hihihi :) he called me around ten and yea, with just a snap of fingers my mood is up up and away again yaaaay! just to hear his calming voice made me feel sooooo chill out hahahaha well, we talked about things, several not-so-important things but i was glad that that small things could change my mood hehehe but eng ing eng, suddenly he felt sleepy ngahahaha so i said "go ahead, have some sleep" but then he saiiiiid "nah, later on. i still miss you.." wohhh no doubt, i flew to the seventh sky wusssshhh awwwww goshgoshgosh glad he's mine! aaaaargh i miss him now! okay, back to the thingy, after that we still chit-chatted for a while than he went to sleep for real. but it's oh so him to still send me texts saying goodnight and else, whatever it was, i loved it hahahahaha OMG, is there someone else better for me than him? i doubt it now hihihi

and tooooooooooooooooooday, i'm dying! well, i just hyperbolized it, but yeaaa i'm dying to meet him ASAP, well maybe just his voice that i can listen to is okay, but i want himmmm now beside me :( oh please dear, God! hufff well, at least there's a good thing, he misses me too! hihihi i'm no a psychic, he just told me in his texts :D oh God, i wish i can meet him nowww! oh i'm so in the need of teleport machine uuuuu fuckfuckfuck! hmm sorry guys, but i want to get out of this blog now hahahah i'll be too busy texting adit hihihi bye! :)

L.O.V.E

2008-08-27T17:27:00.003+07:00

whoaaa you gotta be kidding me that june 18th was the last time i posted! woops, so sorry beibs! hahaha i really have a lot of things to write nooooow! seriously! lots of thing have changed in my life that changes my day yeaaaah

so now i'm a high schooler! yeaaa hahahah nothing to great about it, untiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiil i found someone special yeaaaah hahahaha oh god, i'm so over the moon right now! yesyesyes i change my status recently, i'm in a relationship agaiiin yeaaa yippie! hahahaha so so so he is my classmate and one of my good friend. well, his name is Adit and yeah, i can't be far away from him now :( going home is a hard thing to do these days hahahaha he's way soooooo nice and caring :) uuuu i fall deep for him and somehow i don't mind! the way he talks, he stares, and he holds my hand makes me soooo into him :) well, so lovely-dovey rrrrright? but nah, i don't really care hahahah he's the silver lining out of my shady sky of this three years :)

to be honest, i love every little thing he does to me :) well, nothing too serious now, and i hope nothing will be gone to far. amin. with his hands holding mine, i feel nothing but warmth and comfort. by the way he hits on me, i smile so big and love him more. oo God, thank you for your blessing by "sending" him to me :) eventhough somewhat too fast, but like i care! he's just a great guy that falls in love and fortunately, with me :) hahahaha sooooo, please pray for the best for both of us. thank you :)

Bandung!

2008-06-18T17:29:00.003+07:00

whoaaa sorry that i didn't update my blog for a while, it's been busy days for me lately hahaha it was like almost a week ago since my last post right? there's a lot things that have been going uurgh same old story actually, but x_x hahahaha

so, on saturday till sunday i went out to Bandung, so i thought couldn't use the internet in my hotel room then i didn't bring my notebook. but, at the lobby hotel there, there's this sorta bulletin board that's read "free wireless internet in your hotel room" and i was like, "whoaaa fuck you! aaaargh fuckfuckfuck!" hahahahaha it's sorta dying situation for me! hahahaha i'm the type of girl than can't leave without internet, it makes me feel itchy hahahaha well then, because i came early i couldn't get my hotel room, so my mom and i chose to stay at the lobby while my dad was meeting some client there. at the lobby, i was kinda crummy hahahahahaha i sat on a sofa with my feet up and eating fried banana hahahahaha it's sorta embarrassing, but fuck it up! hahahaha i said to my mom that i was having a classy picnic, you know, picnic at a hotel lobby hahahaha then, there are these two cheesy chinese laughed at me and pointed their finger on me zz they both looked like cheap bitch! not because they were mocking at me, but because the way the dressed! ha, you must see it uurgh well, enough with people-talking! hahaha

then my mom and i got bored, so we chose to went out (read : shopping time! my shopping time yaay) we went to several distros, you know it's like a "boutique" for teenagers hahahaha i went to like 4-6 distros and i bought one t-shirt, one hoodie, and one hat. but the shopping didn't stop there! the next day i went to distro house, it's like a factory outlet that sold things from many distros. there i bought another three t-shirts hahahaha red, green, and dusty white colors hahahaha

well that's it, the most interesting thing in Bandung is always about the shopping, so that's it. hahahahah maybe the way i shared is lame, because i am more excited to share my Anyer story yeaaaaaa hahahahahaha but i need to write it in a different post, i promise i'll write it hehehe i have to write it in a different post because it'll be very long! hahaha well, Bye!

whoa!

2008-06-12T19:16:00.007+07:00

whoaaaa my PC is back! yeaaa i'm so grateful! hahaha well, i'm sorry i didn't post anything yesterday. it was a bussssyyyyyyyy day! lots of things to do blablabla zz not an interesting story to tell, you know, another lameness zz well well well i have nothing to talk either right now hahaha i'm way too happy because my PC is back hahaha it's old and living, i can't be so thankful for this! hahaha how old is this PC? zz i can't even remember it zz for real, it must be more than 7 years old bahahaha i need a new new new one! how about iMac! yeaaa uu daddy, can i have one? hahahaha but i don't think so, since this one is newly repaired, so for a new thing will take a looooong time zz but i'm okay with old thingy, i'm a master in control old gadget hahahaha for real! my notebook is waaaaay much older than this! hahahaha no, kidding! but my NEC notebook is kinda pathetic hahaha at the first place, it was my dad for two or three years. than my sister would go to study abroad, so he gave it to her and he bought himself a Vaio, the mini one uuu, but like almost a year later the notebook broke so it's sent back to Jakarta to be repaired and my sistah got a new macBook aaaaaaaaaaaaaargh (a big envy! but it was called iBook back then, if i'm not mistaken) when the NEC was done repaired, my mom used it for another year. around last year, my dad bought a new notebook (again!) a Fujitsu Lifebook (another big envy aaaaaaa) so my dad gave the mini Vaio to my mom and i got the NEC blaaaaaaaaaah zz

well, enough for the notebook history, it's a big lameness right? hahahaha i had and have several used gadget, but i don't really mind actually. because it was my dad's, so everything are still in a great condition! :D well let me list the used thingy :

NEC Versa s900 zz you know the history
Nokia 6600 blaaah i don't used it anymore, the battery leaks hahaha but i still keep it zz
XDA 02 Mini hahahaha i still use it until now, it's still great! really! but yea, the appearance is sorta a disaster now hahahaha
iPod 3rd generation yeaaa isn't it cool? hahaha it's dead yawl! hahaha
uurgh i forget the name but i got another two used notebook before this NEC Versa zz
and yea i think i got more used things, but i forget hahahaha :D

so so so there's this thing! i wrote all of that above using my PC, but then suddenly IT'S DEAD! YEA IT'S FREAKING CRAZY DEAD! AAAAAAAARGH NO WAAAAY GOD, I FEEL LIKE A DAMNED BITCH! BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE REPAIR-MAN AAAA so now i write this using my notebook again zz thanks to blogger.com who got some cool thing called "save now" hahahaha all of the writing above are saved! yeaaaaaa so let me write more! but let me move to another post, well maybe i'll post it tomorrow hahahaha i'm sorry! bbbbut, this blog post reminds me of my bitchy PC and that pissed me off hahahaha Bye!

Crap-talkingwriting

2008-06-10T15:33:00.003+07:00

Hey! I am super booooooooring right now! i don't have any thought in mind now, so i'll write nonsense here bahahahaha i haven't done anything worthy since prom night. i did nothing but slept late and woke up late hahahahaha craving things and going online uurgh for the first day, it's fun! but now it's way too lame uurgh give me something to do please! actually i really want to 'hang out' with my camera, but i don't have a great object but me zz lame number 1 hahahaha so now i'm in a flat mood with a lame day uuuuuurgh give me some thingy to do please! i'd loooooooooooooooooove to play games! i'd love to play the sims! but fuck, my PC was broken and it's being repaired now uurgh i'm online with my notebook now, for your information. i'm done with listening to music again and again uurgh lame number 2 baaaaaah i feel like i am powerless zz

well i feel like about to talk about something now, someone actually hahahahaha but i don't think it's polite to talk about someone online, without his knowing hahahaha but hey, i really want to share all of the great things about him, so it's not a crime rrrrrright? hahahaha well, i want to talk about people actually, i love people! but i'm not a people person, though hahahaha i have great friends that i'd love to share here hmmmmm so who's first? aaaa i can't pick! but i want to talk, talk, talk! oops, not talk, but write! hahahaha waaaaaa who's first? who wants to go first? hmm how about.. myself! hahahahaha nonono kidding hahahaha i'm a lame girl with cool things in mind hahahahaha see i'm way too lame!

aaa i start to crap-writing! i need to get out of this, ASAP! but i want to write and write and write about people! i have these three options in mind, six great girls who always lighten up my days, one super kind boy who understands me better than i do hahaha, and this guy that's so adorable! hmm love is always the hottest topic hahahaha aaaa i still can't pick one zz stupid, extra stupid! but the stupidest thing is.. i'm pretending like all of the world is reading my blog! but the truth is.. NONE hahaha whatever! well, how about girl talk? okay? but i need to get out of this thing first, i need to rest myself a while to lessen my crap-writing hahaha Bye :D

Going Wild

2008-06-08T10:51:00.004+07:00

heeeey! it's been a real long, long time ago since the last time i updated this thing! hahahaha i'm sorry, i'm in my senior year in junior high, so there's a lot things to do that needed much preparation.

well, so all of the exam was done, and you know what? last night i did the prom night! YAAAY :D for real, the prom night wasn't so wow for me hahahaha because it filled with sad things, you know, about saying sorry, leaving, and blablabla and yeah, i hate that! why? there's this boy i love waaaaaaaay to much (i know it's bad, but i love him :|) and he'll continue high school in a different school with me uurgh disaster? yea! but i'm okay now. not that okay, but i'm better than the first time i heard and proved it with my own eyes that he'll be leaving. uurgh, i won't discuss it here, and never! but you know what? to attend that prom, we should come in couples, you know the boy asked the girl hahahaha and yea, he asked me to the prom! :D but in a friendly way, i didn't expect more. i love him, he doesn't love me. i understand, so whatever! to come in to the prom venue, i had to walk down the red carpet with him hahahahahaha did some photographs with him and that's it, done hahaha when i searched for seat with my friend, he followed me but fuck, thn one of his friend called him, so he sit beside him huu then the story went on the night with my eyes on him, everytime i could find him in the darkness hahahaha (it's an outdoor prom night, so we're using dim lighting) have i told you he looked sooo handsome! well, actually whatever he wears, that's how he'll looks like, hot! --, so the conclusion is, he is good looking :)

last night, he was my date. and two days ago was his birthday. well, as someone who's in love with him (bwek), as his date, and yea as his friend who knows his birthday, i chose to give him a birthday present :D i don't know if he likes it or not, if he wants to give it to someone else, i don't mind hahahaha BUT YOU HAVE TO SEE HIS SMILE WHEN I GAVE HIM THE PRESENT! WAHAHAHAHAHA i tried to keep my cool, but actually i could die that time! he's smiling when he said thank you! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa that smile, YES THAT SMILE! that smile, that i can't resist, i will never can :(

and that's it. the prom stopped there. yea, only the prom. but the real party was about to begin! yea! later on, like most of us went to a mini club, having private after prom party! hahahaha my body couldn't resist the music, i danced all night long hahahahaha some of my friends said i was soo wild, but what the fuck! i don't care! there were these things in my mind, and it's time to be free! yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa but fuck, he's a shy guy. he went to the dance floor, but didn't dance uurgh i saw him looking at me hahahah i didn't know what's inside his mind hahahaha but maybe i was too wild that night. hahaha no alcohol, but still wild hahahaha somehow i regret not to ask him dance hahahaha but hey, last night was about releasing all of the pressure, right? do last night was about dancing all night long hahahaha and the party ended at 2 am wahahahaha

ah that's it, actually the fun was far more than this, but i'm tired now hahahah sorry! contact me to know the details, k? hahaha bye

Fuck Malaysia

2008-02-13T16:30:00.004+07:00

hey, i'm back hahaha
sorry didn't update yesterday, my internet was broken. Fuck! :D
actually, what i wanna talk about isn't about my internet
but about some articles i read in newspaper yesterday
actually, it was two articles that's really attracted my attention
and both of it was about the fuckingly MALAYSIA (next on i'll write thief for it)
the real thief of asia :D
the first article was about the cheating that the thief made
the thief moved the pole that used to mark Indonesia's region and thief's region
so they could larger their region
oww, poor thief
you don't have much space for your own shit
i know the thief people will say that's it's Indonesia's faults
they'll say that we (Indonesia) can't take a good care of our own region
they'll say that we are way too much weak
and they'll say that it's our fault because our people are easy to be bribed
i won't deny it everything
yes that's my country isn't as successful like the thief
but hey, we respect another country
and Indonesians are famous for our hospitality and our original culture
and we are not a RACIST, at least we're not anymore!
whoa, what a word! but that's so damn right
the Chinese people in the thief are desperate
they feel under pressure there
because they are not that welcome anymore there
after the Indian guy who got racist issue there, now is the time for Chinese
their business is going down
because the government wants to cooperate with the ~~melayu~~ only
everything that the Chinese wants will be harden by the government
Chinese people felt the unfair situation are getting worse and worse
if the thief is a real country, why treat non-melayu bad
that's not a good, healthy country
that's 100% wrong
when there's no justice anymore there
there'll be no peace left there
war and demonstration will be something that usual there
and one day Indonesia will watch them fall
and the glory is in Indonesia's hands once more, and forever
Amin.

but i'm really sorry for the Chinese, the Indian, and other non-Melayu there. be strong, guys. you'll be out from this. keep pray to your God.

sorry for the bad English, i'm on fire. HATE ~~MALAYSIA~~!

Rianti.

as a girl

2008-02-11T17:12:00.000+07:00

i find something sorta interesting in something that's no too much important
the difference of girl's t-shirt and boy's t-shirt
i know this topic is kinda oh so boring
but is kinda a discrimination for either girls or boys
well, some girls find it as an okay thing
the difference brings something that's fine for them
but for a girl like me, who likes to wear a larger size t-shirt than it should be
so it will look better on my not-so-slim-body
well, it's because i'm more an androgyny person
now let's back to the t-shirt thingy
boy's tees are thicker, and without a curve at the waist and the sleeves are in medium size
and girl's tees are sheerer, and with a curve at the waist and the sleeves are short
when i wear boy's tee, i roll up the sleeves and that makes the tee look longer on my body and somehow makes my body look better
and the thick cloth of the tee makes me feel warm
but when i wear girl's tee, if i wear one number smaller that i should be wearing, it looks so tight in my body
but if i wear one number bigger, i will look like an pregnant bitch
so why don't you wear the right size?
because if i wear the right size, some of my body part will like it'll pop out from the tee
so what number it is, girl's tee never fit me good
the thickness is not right, the model is quite wrong, and the fitting in my body is bad
and now we'll talk about the print on the tee
i usually buy tees from distro
in jakarta at stepa, moose, and nanonine
in bandung at candy most of the time, which is thanks God there are unisex tees there
you will find out that the print on the boy's tees are more interesting, more unique, wilder, and bigger
then on the girl's on, which is more, yes, girly and sweet
and the prints are usually on the chest side
which is for some girls with big boobs will find it uncomfortable
with that kind of problem, that provokes crimes
it causes crimes like homicide or even violation
with the humps, actually the boobs, popping out from the tee
isn't it pump up the guys testosterone?
feeling horny with a bootylicious curvy girl is nothing weird
i'm not demonstrating here about t-shirt
this is just my opinion, well none will read though
are you girls feeling okay with that "discrimination"
because actually there's no real rules about it
i see this as a cliche thing
something that's not so important, but bothers me enough
actually that's fine for me to but boy's tee
but i just wanna know if this thing bothers someone else too
well again, it's not important
if this can be something to talk about at your neighbor, that's cool
I'm out.

Rianti.

Late Weekend

2008-02-10T16:20:00.001+07:00

tomorrow's school, means i'll rarely update this blog
it's kinda sad for me, but what can i say?
my mom and i were just finished doing crosswords
actually we're not finished, we're dead haha
got a homework tomorrow, but i'm done
because of hopelessness, about 8 numbers i can't do
now updating this blog maybe the last fun thing i do today
because going night time turns my mood bad
school things are sucks, a perfect ten
even i'll meet some rawking friends there
but still, the chores and soon-to-be-homeworks never nice
i open people.com along with writing this post
looking for some juicy gossip
but sadly, i find none
i just found one sad gossip, yeah right
about mourning Heath Ledger
because it's a sad story, i won't talk about it here
because i have my own one
my external hard disk is dead
there's one component that's broken
without my ehd, my life sucks
all of my projects, musics, and videos are there
some music that i'd just downloaded can't be moved to my notebook
so my iPod will remain so last year
well, i guess for tomorrow school will be kinda boring
better out than i have to start swearting
see ya aroung next week
well, if i'm lucky we'll meet tomorrow
Out.

Rianti.

Nonsense

2008-02-10T08:09:00.000+07:00

it's sunday morning now
the sunshine is kinda shy in jakarta
actually it's raining haha
my grands has gone now
they kinda disturbed me all night
tomorrow is monday, means that i'll go to school again
after 4 days of holiday it's hard to move my butt in the morning
but surely i miss my friends
but with all of that school routine?
that's full of shits
for real, my mind is blank now
nothing in mind
but i can't make it rest
is it because of too much sleep?
or too much problems?
well, i speak no problem here
so i guess i have to be out
better than i start talking about problems here
then, out.

Rianti

small piece

2008-02-09T12:26:00.000+07:00

i am an indonesian
a 15-years-old girl from big town jakarta
going to private school is not a wow thing here
so don't think i'm a spoiled rich girl
i use unlimited fast speed internet in my house
so i wish i can update my blog everyday
taking pictures is one of my interest
about real life or close up is what i take
always having my iPod around to comfort me
well, even lots of time my friends use it longer than me
there are 6 friends that i treasure right now
i share laughs with them
but i like being alone most of the time
and my notebook always there for me
well, sometimes my computer
i can share everything with them
they treasure every picture i've taken,
every poem i've written,
every school project i have to do
think i'm the only child?
you're a lil bit wrong
got older sister, but she's away in netherland
actually, i rarely miss her
because none disturb in my own time
reading some books can make me sit still
a darker book a better point
or going to movies with friends or mom isn't bad
i have a dark secret
but i won't share it here
and now i have to go
Out.

Rianti.

greetings

2008-02-09T10:25:00.000+07:00

actually i don't know what i'm going to write here
maybe just about my thoughts or else
but i won't make it like a diary
because i have one in deviant art
i thought i wanna make it dark
but my life is already dark
and the one in deviant art is dark too
so just make this one bright and nice
i like to make my opinion on something
then this one will be that kind of blog, i guess
well then, i'm out

Rianti.